Ring

I feel so dumb when I try to talk to you like him,
Because you don’t notice things.
I am so loud, because I want you to notice me.

We have fun; I make jokes at the cafe,
But I still get the sense you’re kind of sick of me.

I don’t know anymore if it’s my fault.
I don’t know how I got caught up in this thing.

If I called him right now, I could say anything.
If I called you right now, would you let it ring?
Would you let me ring?

I can’t help—
I can’t help myself from comparisons.

And I felt so numb when I begged you to let me win.
It was like pulling teeth,
And I still don’t think you noticed me.

I should put down my phone, I won’t let it ring.